Mercy For My Mess
Do you ever find yourself in a jam? Rather, self-inflicted or placed on you by others. You figured you were stuck or it would take a lot to get yourself out of it and you might just give up or give in to it. Then here comes God paving away out! I find myself in tears right now because He goes this for me over and over again! I feel like David when he said, “what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?” Psalms 8:4 ESV
I cry because I know I’m not worthy of his love and grace, but He gives it to me. He makes the devil back off of me, clears my thoughts and shows me the way to escape. He shows me how to fix a situation or turns me around when walking in the wrong direction. He provides a season of clarity, shining a bright light towards the exit. But it’s up to me to crawl, walk, hop or run towards it. He opens my eyes to see what is the truth and is lies, so I might make clear choices.
It’s like the weight, and the blindness of the situations lifts off of me giving me enough time to make a move. I can envision fog clearing all around me. I see a door emerge out of the thickness that I couldn’t see before. It’s not wide open but cracked open enough for me to notice a glimmer of light. Now it’s time for me to make some choices. Do I stay in this familiar-foggy state of mind, or do I begin moving towards the door? It’s always easy to stay put because we know change requires work on our part. It means I have to face myself, my situation and those that might be involved. Or I could allow myself to remain in the fog due to comfort, fear or outside pressures. Lord knows I have allowed myself to stay stuck because of all those said reasons to many times. Yet you stir up all the strength you need, and you conquer it. Glory to God!
However, give it some time, you look around, and you’ve walked right back into the fog again. I’m not asking you to tell on yourself, I’m just telling on me. I am so guilty of this it hurts. Might be why I am so grateful for God’s grace and mercy. I am reminded of what Jesus stated, “Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven-for she loved much. But he who is forgiven little, loves little.” Luke 7:47 ESV. Now you can take that passage of scripture any way you desire. I am not here to debate over interpretation. I am only here to share my experiences. God has shown me so much mercy for my mess that it causes me not only to love and respect who He is but to also not be soooo judgemental. (I feel a blog on that topic coming in due season.) The more mercy He gives me, the more I’ve noticed I give onto others. I have become more understanding of Human Nature vs God Nature.
Say what you will, maybe you have more self-control or perhaps the nurture and nature you grew up with provided you with a clearer perception of life, leaving you with less mess to clean up. I don’t know! All I know is, I honestly would be entirely lost without him. My life experiences have taught me is. I also know, I’m never happy that He has to go back for his one lost sheep, but I am so mighty thankful that He does. He calls out my name in the fog and guides me back to safety. Back to peace of mind. Back to reality. Back to His fold!